Just Do Right

Florida - October 21, 2015

In attendance: Astrid, Jackie, Jeff, Nelson, Santiago and Tina

 

After the opening prayer, Nelson's spirit guide asked us to read a prayer from Kardec's The Spirits' Book for babies about to be born.  Jackie's great niece was expecting a new baby soon, and Nelson was shown the baby surrounded by spirits who responsible for terminating reincarnations.  They wanted this child to be born dead.  Nelson was also shown that the mother was initially happy when she first became pregnant, but she was not happy and very unsure if she welcomed the changes associated with a baby.  Astrid thought that this incident could also be a lesson for the spirit of the baby.  Speaking about the mother, Nelson's guide said: "No, she is requesting it (that the baby not to be born)."  It was the spirit of the baby about to be born asking for help.  This spirit did not want to die after being born, and the rejection from the mother had upset the spirit.  There was also an angrier spirit involved.

 

Spirit 1 (via Nelson):  Nelson was shown that the mother had a relationship in this life with another man, and she aborted a baby they conceived together.  That spirit had returned, wondering why the mother was now willing to have another baby when she did not allow this spirit to be born. As the spirit arrived, Nelson curled up his arms and coughed repeatedly:

Spirit (angry an tearful): Why not me?  Why put me back? (sobbing) Tell me why.

Jackie: It was her choice.  Even though it was wrong.

Spirit: You don't know what it does to us.

Jackie: We do, but she didn't.

Spirit: See how I feel?  See how I cannot function?  I don't understand.  I was ready.  I was ready and they stopped.  And now what?  I'm half.  Half here, half there.

Astrid: You are a complete spirit.  There will be other opportunities for you.  Let it go.

Spirit: I didn't want him to take my place.  I am so sad.  I'm not going to be born and they tell me I cannot destroy that other one.  (long pause)  He's removing my dead body.  Removing what was going to be my body. (pause)  It's very hard to see.  He said it's okay to cry.  That little thing was going to be me.  (long pause)  I can go back to school, back in line, and find out when it will be my turn.  I don't want to cry anymore, I want my energy back.  If you can, tell everyone you know not to do that - because it puts us back.  I'm familiar with that school, I have been on that path before...

Astrid: And by not causing harm, no harm will come to you either...

Spirit: Thank him (the spirit guide) for saving me... 

 

Spirit 2 (via Nelson):  After the spirit left, Nelson's guide had a message:  "In her mind, this is the only child she (the niece) wants, and that is not true.  If she ever wants to be happy or have a good life, she must bring him back (the spirit who just passed).  He has to come back.  This has been done twice with this spirit already.  The mother (of the niece) did the same thing, and this is the same spirit.  Her mother regrets it, as she is having problems now.  There is a cloud (cancer), and she needs a doctor to check it." 

 

Nelson was exhausted after the spirit, and his guide said: "But you like the results of the work?  (Nelson agreed)  For example, with your mother?  We need to have faith.  After some initial open-ended questions for the table, Nelson's guide was finally able to persuade Tina to talk.  The conversation continued:

 

Caballito: We like to feel that we are in control, but what happens when we are not?

Tina: We are afraid that we will never be in control again.  Control is important.

Caballito: Even when we realize that it can hurt?

Tina: We waste a lot of energy trying to control.  But if we lose control, it might not come back.

Caballito: It's good energy that is wasted.  Do we still want control if it takes away our loving and kindness?

Tina: Depends.

Caballito: Are we worried that we will be seen as weak?

Tina: Perceived as wrong.

Caballito: Have you ever taken time to look inside and see who you are?  Let things come out as they are?

Tina: You can never take it back once you say it...

Caballito: Even if you say, 'Can you help me?'

Tina: Nobody wants to help...

Caballito: But didn't we just help someone that we don't know (the spirit of the baby)?  Open a little bit.  A life without smiles is not worth living.  Emotions are human, not a weakness.  Part of being human is to understand weaknesses.  There is no judgment here (at this table).  What is the prettiest thing inside you?

Tina (long pause): My home.  It's a peaceful place.

 

Nelson's spirit guide moved to the side, as a new spirit was emerging.  This spirit has been "in charge" of Tina for so long, he controls her completely.  "That's the spirit who stops her from talking," Jackie added, as she visualized the spirit standing behind Tina.

 

Spirit 3 (via Nelson):  Nelson's guide wanted to break that connection.  "He followed me and I thought I got rid of him," Tina explained.  Nelson said that Tina should not be afraid.  The spirit wanted and needed to come back for a conversation - to finally have a moment to speak - but he was not ready.  A group of spirits were attempting to take him away for more education, but he had to be put into shackles.   

 

Caballito (to Tina): There are many barriers in your life.  Let go if it is not important.  Weakness is only what you think is weakness.  We are removing the soldiers who were with him.  They are all from Germany, and still at war.  Some of them see you as Jewish.  There are some additional soldiers, trapped together in a trench who will not go.  Their leader keeps them there...

Tina: And the French will not let them move either.

Caballito: Some of them like you and want to protect you.  Others want to kill you, as Jews are the enemy.

(A spirit arrived, replacing Caballito)

Spirit: What do you want from me?

Jackie: Leave this girl alone.  The war is over.

Spirit: We have been waiting.  Waiting for someone to come.

Astrid: You are wasting your time.

Spirit: What has come now is not what we expected.  They have sent helicopters to get us.

Jeff: To help you move on.

Spirit: They are not the enemy?  Hmmm.  We will go into those helicopters, one by one.  (Nelson began to stamp his feet, as if marching)  Next, next one.  That one is full now, drop that!  Leave that hat.  Next.  That one is full, next.  Fast!  They might catch us.  Next, keep moving.  (pause)  I am the only one left now.  There were 103 of us.  I am going in that last helicopter...going...

 

The spirit left softly and quickly, sounding sad.  Tina explained that she saw these soldiers in November 2012.  Nelson saw the spirits filling in the war trench after the departure of the soldiers.

 

Jackie closed with a prayer.

Chicago - August 9, 2015

In attendance: Bernardo, Carmen, Denise, Emiliano, Esmeralda, Eva, Gabe, Isabel, Juan, Juanita, Jeff, Maricela, Marisol, Nelson, Ron and Sonia 

 

As the opening prayer was finishing, Eva began to cry.  She explained that she had felt like crying for the last few days, because she did not want to leave Chicago.  Eva's said her visit was emotionally fulfilling, and that she would miss our group and her family.  She wanted to thank the spirits for all of their work and resolutions, and the efforts with her grandson.  Eva knew that she had grown spiritually.  Nelson advised her that when she returned to Puerto Rico, Eva would be able to direct her own spiritual path.  He added that her son and daughter both have the capability to become mediums.  Luis learned much, and now he understood even more.

 

Before moving to the table, some members of the group had related stories of "family dilemmas."  Gabe had not yet shared a story, and Nelson knew that he wanted to express himself.  The situation with Gabe's mom (Nelson's sister) was becoming more complicated, and Nelson believed that Gabe wanted to close himself off, away from his family.  Gabe agreed, saying that he wanted to find his own happiness, but his mother did not approve, making it difficult for him to keep a up good relationship with her.

 

Spirit 1 (via Nelson):  Nelson said Gabe's mom (Lourdes) was being used by the spirits - and she allowed it to happen.  Marisol added that Lourdes' actions towards Gabe were not about "how to love, they were about how to control him."  Nelson saw a black cloud over Lourdes (he drew a picture of it that resembled the shape of Puerto Rico) and this cloud covered only her.  The spirits within the cloud were laughing at Lourdes, and she was lost in her own darkness.  Nelson suggested that she seek counseling.  He heard the spirits taunting him: "Let's see if he is good enough to find that cloud."  As a spirit moved forward, Nelson began to sweat.  The spirit was saying, "He abandoned me!  No way out!"  Marisol saw the situation as if Lourdes was in a tunnel, and she was wondering how to get out.  The spirit arrived: "Nunca!  She is never getting out!  Tell him (Gabe) not to interfere or we will knock him out.  I am the one with the power!  (laughing)  I want her to become crazy, with nobody to help her. She made fun of us and laughed.  I want her to be alone."

 

The spirit was angry at being restrained, and he wanted to blindfold Lourdes and torture her. Marisol, Carmen, and Gabe all counseled the spirit, as he continued his tirade: "I don't feel good because they took me from there.  She (Lourdes) offered us a lot and she has not done anything.  I am very angry!"  Marisol encouraged the spirit to forgive Lourdes so that he could feel better.  The spirit eventually agreed to take what was his (the black cloud and the blindfold), but he warned that there were many other black clouds around Gabe's mom.  He asked for forgiveness from Gabe for the animosity he had caused.  The spirit said he would take 14 others with him, and he left dramatically, leaving Nelson red faced and gasping for air.

 

Spirit 2 (via Carmen):  Almost immediately, a new spirit arrived to sit through Carmen.  She was Gabe's mother from a previous life, and she was crying.  The spirit was not part of the group from the black cloud, but she was around Gabe's mom in this life, encouraging her thoughts:

Spirit: I want him back home, I want my baby...

Nelson:  But he is happy and content here.

Spirit: No!  I am going to continue to fight with him until he comes back home.  I have given him headaches and heartaches.

Nelson: You are a spirit, it's time to move on...

Spirit: I am not happy with her (Lourdes) in a corner.  Who will take care of him if I move on?  Who will I take care of?  They say I have to learn...

Nelson:  Yes.  You need a school and a hospital to feel better.

 

The spirit agreed to leave and she took three others with her.  The mediums advised Gabe not to travel to Puerto Rico, as there were many things that needed to be cleared away, and these complicated issues would not be resolved in a few months.  Nelson and Marisol saw the situation as a forceful wind sucking up energy, similar to a tornado.  The winds were causing the black clouds that hovered over Gabe's mom.

 

Spirit 3 (via Marisol): Marisol had observed a spirit who was not at all happy with our group.  He insisted that we did not know anything, and he wanted Nelson to shut up.  He said that he was with no one, but he was not alone.  He was a soldier, with a "mission" to destroy our group.  As the spirit arrived, Marisol understood that this spirit wanted us to do the "bad work" that he enjoyed:

Spirit (speaking rapidly): None of you know anything.  I am trying to breathe.  All of you are crazy.  I wanted to rip that book out of his hands.  Do not read anything else!  (the spirit angrily shoved everything in front of him further away). 

Nelson:  You will not be allowed to break this up...

Spirit (looking at Sonia): She's a busybody!  I want her to lose those keys.  I will make her fall.  I want to break this up! 

Nelson:  They brought you here today because those plans are over.

Spirit (motioning): I will upend this table!  I will!  I am the boss here.  I broke up another group...

Nelson: No.  Look, they are all here now.  (the spirit struggled as if being restrained)

Eva: This is a harmonious group.

Spirit (to Jeff):  You!  Stop writing!  I am in charge of this division, in charge of creating conflicts within this group, I have my orders!  Do you see my papers?

Nelson:  They are taking your boss away now.  For hundreds of years you have been doing wrong things.

Spirit:  They are taking him away with 17 others!  To a hospital?  But I have my papers, my mission!

Nelson:  You also need to leave - to go to a school.

Spirit (agreeing to give up his papers): We will go.  There are 102 of us, plus the 17, plus our boss...

 

Nelson previously saw this spirit on Wednesday, when he was running and hiding around the center.  Denise saw him today in the restroom.  Nelson reminded our group that we are also a family.  The table discussed how groups like ours were often under attack from the spirits who wanted to close them down.  Nelson envisioned a female spirit in her 30's who was with the group.  Her job was to travel back with Eva to Puerto Rico, with hopes of shutting down that group.  Nelson also mentioned that our sessions often had spirits around our table who were not in any condition to sit.  These spirits were taken away by the good spirits.

 

Nelson noticed a spirit around Bernardo, and this spirit presented himself as a snake.  Carmen understood, and Bernardo explained that in his recent dreams, he saw hundreds of snakes - and he does not like them.  Nelson sensed one enormous snake who squeezed Bernardo at night, leaving him with little air to breathe.  This was "the mother of all serpents," and it was very ugly.  The snake made hissing noises instead of speaking.  Carmen said that she heard hissing noises at night, and Bernardo had felt his bed moving. 

 

Spirit 4 (via Nelson):  There were 20 snakes, and Nelson was asking one of them to sit.  The snakes encouraged Carmen and Bernardo to argue, and the conflict that brought them to our table today was a disagreement about selling the house.  Nelson hunched his shoulders and began to hiss, as one of the snakes arrived:

Spirit:  Tell them to let me go.  Stop it.  (looks at Carmen)  I will not speak to her!

Marisol: You can speak to me...

Spirit:  I want to finish with him (Bernardo), and she gets in the way. 

(Marisol continued to counsel the spirit, explaining that the snake no longer had a body - and a spirit guide was helping him to speak)

Spirit (stamping his feet, and turning away from Marisol):  What?  Who are you people?  Witches?  I haven't let him eat.  I squeeze and squeeze him.  (the rattle was being removed from the snakes tail by the spirits)  I cannot make noise anymore?  They are telling me I died?  I am so tired, I don't have the strength to move.  I'm dead?  I don't have a body?  Where am I going now?

Marisol: To a hospital, so you can feel better...

Spirit: There are many of us - six.  I will go now and leave them (Carmen and Bernardo) alone.  He's a good guy, this man (referring to the spirit guide)...

 

Spirit 5 (via Nelson & Marisol):  Marisol sensed a spirit related to Maricela.  This spirit was standing behind her.  Was it a sister?  After some additional conversation, it was determined that the spirit was Maricela's mom, who died six years earlier from a brain related cancer.  There was an issue with an older daughter, and it was never resolved.  When the mother died, she took the pain of this argument with her.  Focusing so much on the conflict between her daughters had not allowed the mother to elevate herself in the spirit world.  The mother spoke from a position behind Marisol, and she cautioned Maricela to be careful when she is a passenger in a car.  She should not to drive with just anyone.  Maricela said she had dreamt of her sister asking for forgiveness.  The spirit of the mother saw all of the fighting between the sisters, and she wanted to intervene, but she could not.  Juanita does not speak with this sister, as she knows that it will make her ill.  There was a spirit who wanted a car accident to happen, and the mother did not want it.  The mother wanted peace between the sisters.  There was a young man in the material world (a brother) who gossiped and kept the sisters apart.  As his name (Mauricio) was mentioned, the mother arrived, sitting through Nelson.

 

Nelson cried deeply.  The spirit was filled with sorrow, and she wanted the table to know that she was not at fault for what her children were doing.  Maricela said her mom died too soon, and she wondered why her mother was crying:

Spirit: All I can do is cry.  I don't want to cry anymore.  When will it stop?

Marisol:  It will stop today.

Spirit (to Marisol): I remember you!  (to Maricela) How can I stop crying, when you keep crying?  Crying just to cry.  I came because I want to prevent something from happening.  If it happens, there will be even more tears.  You were my daughters and you always will be.  That other one needs to be hit with a twig to learn.  (the spirit became very emotional)  Today is my celebration, it's my day to leave.  I know I am a spirit.  I don't want any more tears, and I want to feel better.  Because I am a spirit, I know that I will not see them (the daughters) for a while.  (the spirit rocked softly in her seat, visibly moving her hands on the top of the table) Thank this man (Nelson) for giving me a chance to speak.  Don't abandon my friend (Marisol).  She will always help you....

 

Spirit 6 (via Nelson): After the spirit left, Nelson advised Maricela not to cry for her mother, but to smile for the memories of her.  Nelson asked his spirit guide (Caballito) to cleanse him.

 

Caballito: Buenos Tardes, mi amigos.  What a beautiful act between a mother and daughter.  Jeff, you were worried over the family notes, don't be.  Laugh about it, just like the necklace you received.  Laughter is the happiness of the heart.  Now you all know why I requested family stories last week - to attach and bring the things we needed to make today happen.

 

For Marisol: Tell him what you want him to know, as later it will be more difficult. 

 

For Carmen: With love, you like to get what you want.  Don't argue so much.  Here is a bouquet of white roses for you.

 

(Caballito stood and moved near Juanita and Maricela to cleanse them with his towel.  He folded it thicker than usual, and said it was needed to strengthen the love.)
For Maricela:  Call your sister and say that you are sorry - even if you feel that you have nothing to be sorry about...

 

For the group: Send pure energies, just good energy, and that is what you will attract.

Eva: The Law of Attraction.

Caballito: Thank you for allowing me to work.  We are not as elevated as you may think, we are all worker bees, doing God's work.  On the other side, it is difficult to find good workers, because the love has to be pure.  It is difficult to find real love without any "stops".  Let me explain the stops.  I love my mom - BUT! - I love my cousin - BUT! - those are the stops.  No stops, don't do it, as they prevent you from learning and growing.  That's the message for the families.  (to Jeff)  Today I am taking 125 extras (spirits) with me.

 

For Eva: I want to speak with you, once again, and one favor.  Be careful of where you go.  Don't lose the knowledge.  We all belong to the spirit world, and thank him for his help.  I will give you a yellow rose to help you.  Call Rossana and talk with her sometimes, as she forgets the path.

 

For the group: Cando (Marisol's uncle who passed) was here today, observing.  He says to keep working, and one day, he will be able to talk.  He is happy to be remembered...

 

Nelson closed with a prayer.

Chicago - August 2, 2015

In attendance: 

Bernardo, Carmen, Denise, Esmeralda, Eva, Gabe, Isabel, Juan, Juanita, Jeff, Maricela, Marisol, Nazario, Nelson, Ron and Sonia 

 

After the opening prayer, Marisol read the Prayer for the Sick for Mia and anyone else who was ill.  The spirit around Mia that Marisol sensed in the last session was still waiting to speak.  Nelson said that like us, the spirits can be stubborn and impatient, and Marisol added that they have a mission.  This spirit liked where he was, and he wanted Mia to remain in her current condition.

 

Spirit 1 (via Marisol):  There were several spirits from many past incarnations around Mia.  The dominant spirit that Marisol was sensing explained that these spirits were "giving her what she doesn't like to do - asking others for help."  In a previous life, Mia had a lot of power, and she used it to torture men until they died.  Mia put men into a center arena of a castle to be whipped in public.  One of these tortured spirits sat through Marisol.  He was angry and intense, and fanning his back from the heat:

Spirit: Don't talk to me, I am burning.  It's hot.  Take this off!

(The spirit asked for Mia's arms to be cut off)

Nelson: Why do you hate her so much?

Spirit: She was guilty, and it was many.  Now she will never get up again.  Now she would prefer to die.  She does not need anyone - and she does not want anyone!

Nelson:  I want you to go someplace where you can feel better...

(The spirit explained that now Mia is the one with her hands tied, and she was unable to ask for water)

Spirit: Let me enjoy this moment.  She cannot even say that she is thirsty.  Do you see the blood (on me)?  There was no pity.  (struggling in chair)  How do I take this off?  I am thirsty now - for vengeance.  I am just getting started, she has not seen anything yet.  Now she will learn.  There are 42 of us...

 

The spirit spoke calmly.  He insisted that Mia felt the same way now about men in her current existence.  Nelson and the good spirits encouraged him to move on so that he could feel better, but the spirit said, "It's the same existence for her (this time), without the whips."  He eventually agreed to leave.  After he had departed, Nelson said, "Our revenge blinds us to everything else."

 

Nelson saw a group of spirits around Bernardo.  He asked Bernardo if he would like to be young again, and he understood that Bernardo did not want a recliner or any other symbol normally associated with growing older.  The spirits around him liked to see Bernardo well-groomed, but if he did not act the way they wanted, these female spirits would make him sick. 

 

Spirit 2 (via Nelson):  One of the spirits decided to sit through Nelson.  She did not like Carmen's hair color, and urged her to become a blonde, (similar to the spirit's hair), because Bernardo enjoyed that color:

Spirit: Why do you want to bring me here?  I want to be enjoying life, and dancing...

(Nelson danced silently in his seat, while Marisol and Carmen counseled the spirit)

Spirit: Look at them!  These are old women, and I do not like them.  Don't you see me?  I'm pretty.  I don't like this chair either.  He (Bernardo) has to make a decision.  It's time to dance, and I keep telling him it's time to dance, but he does not get up.

Marisol: That party is over.  Nobody wants to dance.

Spirit (noticing Gabe):  Look at that young man!  I should go with him.  It's getting hot.  I get near him (Bernardo) and he sweats!

Marisol: You are a spirit and you are remembering a past life that no longer exists.

Spirit (beginning to understand):  I know now that it's just the body of another old man.  But old men are good, as they give us money.  I am leaving with this man (the spirit guide) and six lady friends will come along with me.  I am going with a younger group...

 

Nelson advised Bernardo that when he feels these types of spirits around him, he should not open the door to let them in.  Their intention is to suck up his energy and make him tired.  Ironically, these spirits who make him feel younger are the ones who tire him out, and leave him feeling older.  Maricela said she experienced a touch on her shoulder, and Juanita sensed that these female spirits were enraged to be discovered.  Sonia sensed a white filter as blood was being withdrawn from Mia. Carmen mentioned her grandchildren, and she was cautioned to call her daughter and tell her to be careful of cars driving at the beach.  Eva suggested that Carmen should read a prayer for protection.  Marisol understood that there was a spirit bothering Carmen.  This spirit was making her ill because working with this spirit was an assignment for Carmen, as the spirit refused to sit with anyone else.

 

Spirit 3 (via Nelson):  Nelson detected a spirit around Jeff who described himself as "a friend".  He wanted Jeff to trip and fall last month as a way to "wake him up":

Spirit: What happened to you? It used to be that if you didn't like someone, you told them to go away - and now you are okay with everyone?  What happened to 'Get away, I don't like you?'  It's the dead people who made him stupid.

Jeff: I learned and changed...

Spirit: Why couldn't you hear me?  I was yelling at you until I got tired of it, so I pushed you.  Well, I tripped you.  I hate him (Nelson) for helping you.  I miss the party, I miss everything we did together - we did it all!  

Marisol: So why did you want to hurt him?

Spirit: To wake him up so we could do the things we used to do.  He (Nelson) was the next one I was going to push, but they stopped me.

Denise: Things change, and people move on...

Jeff: There are rules...

Spirit: I don't understand so many things.  He couldn't hear me and I was yelling and screaming, so I tripped him. He (Nelson) kept saying, 'go way, go away,' so how was it that he could hear me?

Jeff: If you go with the ones around you now, they will explain everything to you.

Spirit (after a pause):  So I died?  All these things I have are not real?

Marisol:  They are memories. 

Spirit: So I am all alone?  (began to cry)  I remember when you used to listen to me, and now I am alone.  Now I know why you were ignoring me. A group of four, that's us and you always liked the number five.  You were the five, but you were missing from the group.  One of us is taking that wig with him - he hated that wig.  They say I cannot be angry.  I can say goodbye and I will see you one day?

Jeff: Yes, you can.  Are you going to tell me your name?

Spirit: It's J.  Jim, Jimmy.  I am sorry if I harmed you, I didn't mean it.  Thank you.  You made me laugh, you made my life better...

 

Jeff was still uncertain over the identify of the spirit.  Nelson started to detect a sadness for Sonia's son and her grandson.  He understood that Sonia wanted to help, but her efforts had not been encouraged.  Nelson said the older grandson (Xavier) was the one who was now the most affected by the conditions in the house.  Nelson told Sonia that her continued prayers were good.  Her son listens to Sonia and agrees with her - but his actions are the opposite of what he says.  He does not change.  The issue is that he does not want anyone to know his wife or household, as he believes, "It's not under my control, so I need to separate myself from it."

 

Spirit 4 (via Marisol):  Nelson understood that Xavier wanted to move away from his situation and live with Sonia.  He doesn't know how to ask her this question, but he knows that things will not change and he longs for a life that is more stable.  Xavier wants to continue his education, but his home situation does not allow it.  Nelson cautioned that he should not postpone school.  If Sonia can help him, she should.  A spirit surrounding Xavier moved into Marisol:

Spirit (sobbing):  They say I have to leave him?  He is not happy?  He wants to get out (continued crying)...

Nelson:  If you really want to help him, you need to go...

Spirit: I want to help him, but I can't!  It was never my intention to make him sad.  He doesn't want to see his mom sick anymore and I can't help him!

Nelson:  It's okay, his grandmother is going to help him now - and protect him.

Spirit: She is not his mother!  His mother doesn't treat him like a mother should.  I feel sad because he is a good son, he was good and he is good.  He has a good heart...

(The spirit pretended to hold an infant in her arms.  It became apparent that this spirit was Xavier's mother from a previous life.)

Nelson:  They are going to take you to a beautiful place, and you can help him when you are better.

Spirit:  In the last moments, he was holding me (the spirit).  He would say, 'Don't leave me mom'.  He suffered when I died and it made him an orphan.  Now he still feels the same sadness.  He says, 'I feel like I am alone, like I don't have a mom.'

 

Spirit 5 (via Nelson):  After some additional counseling, the spirit agreed to go with the guides to a hospital.  Nelson's spirit guide silently moved into Nelson to speak to the table:

Spirit: To be a part of a family, do you need to do whatever they say?

Marisol: For me, yes.  But no, you do not.

Spirit: When we put conditions on love, is it really love?

Marisol: It should be unconditional, loving the good things and the bad.

Spirit: Does anyone here have unconditional love from their family?  This is a lesson for everyone here.  When conditions are put on love, it is not love.  What happens when a son or daughter does not do what the parents want?  Can the parents say they are no longer part of that family?

Marisol: If they do, they love themselves more than the child.

Spirit: You can create your own family.  We need to start loving everyone, with no conditions.

Ron: Except...

Sonia: Accept, not except!  (Ron related a story of family members and wedding conflicts)

 

There were specific messages for some others;

For Maricela: Leave the condition outside - for the brother with a son who has a girlfriend that the family does not like.

 

For Gabe: You.  You already have a new family, so stop it.  If you do what they want, it will harm you more.

 

For Nelson:  It's the same message (as Gabe).  He is half in and half out.  As soon as he says he is out, he goes right back in.

 

For Jeff: He doesn't deal with them anymore, he keeps his distance and it works.

 

For the table: I want to ask you to discuss family dilemmas next Sunday.  Outside (before we move to the table) and inside, it will be all about family.  Express yourselves with the truth.  I need to clear away some of the family dilemma in here.  We need to clean this group so that the wonderful work can continue.  We need everyone to have their mind, and Jeff will like this as he has been asking for it, on the greater work that needs to be done.

 

For Marisol:  It's under control for you, and we will continue that work.

 

For Sonia: I want you to express a story next week as well, to help clean.

 

For all: There is a friend of the group with me (Polo) and he wants you to know that the assignments he gave you have not been forgotten.  One day he will be here to ask you about them.  We are going around now, cleaning the table, so that everyone can leave feeling better than when they came in today.  Some of you (Gabe and Jeff) wondered where I go after the sessions.  Once the mission is accomplished, I go with the spirits.  There is also other work to do, in other places.  Jeff asked if we sleep.  We are lucky if we have a five minute nap, but it's enough, as there is no time where I come from.  (laughed)  I can hear your thoughts.  Don't be afraid to ask questions, I will answer - as long as you are prepared to hear the answer.

 

After his spirit guide had stepped back, Nelson said that when we sat at the table today, he saw everyone with unresolved family situations floating over their heads.  He understood that someone at the table was divorced, but that dilemma could have been resolved.  Sonia smelled cigar smoke from a madame who was observing the session, and the group discussed her presence.  Nelson closed with a prayer.

Chicago - July 29, 2015

In attendance:  Bernardo, Carmen, Eva, Jeff, Luis, Marisol, Nelson and Sonia 

 

Nelson had sensed a group of spirits earlier in the week, and they were arranged in a caravan.  This caravan was traveling from a very dark place, and their assignment was to do very negative, dark spiritual work.  Nelson had invited them to speak at our session, and as the caravan approached, it became apparent that this caravan was a combination of rigid military soldiers in front, followed by other spirits dressed in rags similar to what homeless people might wear.  Jeff thought the military men might be Nazi soldiers and the others might be prisoners from concentration camps.  The caravan was looking for someone, and Nelson wondered who it was. 

 

Spirits 1 & 2 (via Nelson):  Nelson heard one of military spirits say, "It's a secret.  He escaped.  He is a criminal now, because it was without authorization."  The caravan was looking for the escapee to bring him back.  The soldiers had already checked within the caravan, assuming that the poor spirits dressed in raggedy clothing were hiding him. The raggedy poor group had been protecting this spirit when he was a part of the caravan.  The reason that the escapee could not be found was that this spirit had reincarnated as the baby of Rossana.  Nelson's spirit guide quietly moved into Nelson to explain what was about to occur:

 

Caballito: The spiritual work that had to be done to allow this spirit to reincarnate was immense.  There was so much work and energy put into this boy.  Now he is reincarnated, and he needs to do what he was brought here to do.  I want all of you to see this as a learning experience.  (to Jeff)  The other night you were talking about writing a book - this could be the book - and you could write it, which is why I am speaking in English.  (to the group) There is nothing to be worried about, but there is a lot to be concerned with.  You need to know what is on the plate now before we present it.  You say, "I would like to ____" (fill in the blank with a request), and you do not know the consequences.  The mother of this baby said she was "ready for anything, I am prepared - I am ready."  Let's see if she was really ready.  I wanted this to be in my words, not Nelson's.  We are still getting things in place, but something is going to happen in just a moment."

 

Nelson's guide ushered in the disciplined leader of the caravan.  The spirit was frustrated because Nelson did not speak his language (German), and he described himself as the "director" of the group.  He was very authoritative and he wanted us to understood that he was in charge.  Marisol counseled him.  The spirit said, "We have been using flashlights in the night to find him!  A criminal is a criminal.  Where is he?  A donde?  A donde?"  Eva explained that the criminal was now a reincarnated baby in the material world.  The spirit of the general became distraught, saying "No, no, no!  He escaped - where, how?"  Eva asked him for the name of who he was looking for.  It wasn't clear if the general understood her request, but he spelled out "Calic".  Asking him for a name had irritated the general, and he pounded on the table and demanded that "military order" be restored.  He told us that he would no longer speak with Eva - only with Marisol.  The good spirits were encouraging him to leave, and Marisol asked him to listen.  The general said there was another group near his, but they were not a part of his group.  He realized that if wanted to know what had happened, he would need to go with the guides. They told him that his uniform was no longer needed.  The spirit agreed to take 142 other spirits with him, exclaiming "It would have been 143, but he escaped!"  The spirit suddenly pushed Nelson's chair backwards, and he departed with his right hand raised in the "Heil Hitler" salute. 

 

Nelson explained that his guide took him to the caravan, as it was the only way for the general to see him and agree to sit.  Nelson also knew that the general understood his atrocities, as he envisioned him placing a cyanide capsule under his tongue to "escape the torture he knew would come."  The group discussed the situation, and Nelson told Luis that he would play a large role in the development of the reincarnated baby.

 

(Note:  I researched the "Calic" name, looking for German and Polish generals, and possible Nazi military men who committed suicide by cyanide.  The spirit was much more intelligent than we thought.  He gave us a name that was easier to spell than his own, knowing that the name would lead us to only one place. 

 

There was only one Calic connected in any way to Nazi Germany (Edouard Calic).  He was not a soldier, he was an author.  He wrote only one book (in German), and it was translated into four other languages.  The book was only about one individual - Reinhard Heydrich, the general who established the Nazi death camps. http://www.amazon.com/Reinhard-Heydrich-Chilling-Story-Masterminded/dp/0688004814 

 

Nelson confirmed that Heydrich was the spirit he saw: http://www.historyplace.com/worldwar2/biographies/heydrich-biography.htm

 

Some key points from the above article:

- In March of 1933, Heydrich was promoted to SS Brigadier General (he founded the SS), and he was not yet 30 years old.  So we know why this spirit was so authoritative and felt superior.  Even the other Nazi leaders feared him.

- Heydrich was injured by a bomb thrown at his car in Prague, and he was rushed to private doctors.  Nelson saw this spirit killing himself with cyanide, and the "official" hospital report stated he died from blood poisoning - "possibly" brought on by fragments of auto upholstery, steel, and his own uniform which had lodged in his spleen.

- The Gestapo and SS hunted down and murdered the Czech agents (who had been sent by England), resistance members, and anyone suspected of being involved in Heydrich's death, totaling over a thousand people. In addition, 3000 Jews were deported for extermination. In Berlin, 500 Jews were arrested, with 152 executed as a reprisal on the day of Heydrich's death. As a further reprisal, Hitler ordered the small Czech mining village of Lidice to be liquidated for aiding the assassins. In one of the most infamous single acts of WWII, all 172 men and boys over age 16 in the village were shot on June 10, 1942, while the women were deported to Ravensbrück concentration camp where most of them died. Ninety young children were sent to the concentration camp at Gneisenau. (These were the raggedy poor spirits that Nelson saw with the caravan of spirits)

- The village of Lidice was destroyed building by building with explosives, then completely leveled until not a trace remained, with grain being planted over the flattened soil.  It was then removed from all German maps.)

 

Spirits 3 & 4 (via Marisol):  Marisol was studying three spirits, and the first once seemed to have something to do with Carmen.  When she left last Sunday, Carmen sensed the presence of a spirit sitting on one of the outdoor garbage cans.  Her sleep had been troubled ever since. 

 

The second spirit was for Luis.  He is curious, and he wants to give the good energy he often feels to others.  Marisol and Nelson strongly cautioned him not to give spiritual passes to others.  If anyone asks, Luis should politely decline.  He cannot do that without proper training and further development, as he will open doors that he should not open and make himself sick.  Even if he sees a need or feels an urge - it needs to be very clear that he should not do anything.  Nelson sensed that Luis was going to people that he should not be touching.  Before he can proceed, a spirit needs to be with him and he needs to be able to recognize the spirit.  Luis' spirit guide was standing behind Marisol and Nelson, and he wanted this message repeated, as Nelson had told Luis the same thing yesterday.  His spirit guide wanted Luis to know that reading books was one thing, but understanding them was another, more difficult thing.  Nelson advised Luis that he was not in the right place (state of mind) now, so what he wanted to do could not be done.  Marisol said that Luis understood energy, but he needed to first know his spirit guide better.  Marisol described the energy that Luis should feel as a white light around him that allowed nothing else to come in.  Luis needs to learn how to differentiate the various energies - so he can make a conscience choice, instead of letting the energy control him.  The group discussed the issue and possible mentoring and spiritual educational opportunities for Luis in Puerto Rico. 

 

Spirit 5 (via Marisol):  The third spirit that Marisol sensed was for someone not at the table.  Everyone at the session was feeling lethargic and tired, and there were several yawns during the session.  Luis had a headache.  This spirit was causing the sleepiness, so Marisol thought it might be connected to someone who was in a drowsy condition.  Sonia explained Mia's hospital condition, but Marisol understood that this spirit was not with her.  The spirit was connected to Nelson's mother, as she was not doing the spiritual work she promised.

 

The spirit arrived through Marisol, weeping softly.  The condition and circumstances around Nelson's parents was because his mother had closed that spiritual door.  The spirits knocked on the door (Marisol demonstrated by knocking on the table multiple times), and Nelson's mom heard this knocking, but she still refused to answer.  The spirit declared, "It's her mission!  (knocked again on the table) her only mission in this life!"  The spirit described the house of Nelson's parents as "emptiness, loneliness, all alone, and there is too much silence - like a funeral home."  The spirits were knocking on the door until their hands hurt.  The spirit was frustrated and very tired from so much effort and no response.  Carmen and Nelson counseled the spirit.  There were spiritual madames all around, who were there to help.  Nelson advised the spirit that the way to alleviate the pain was to listen to the madames and his guide.  The spirit eventually agreed that he or she was sick.  The skeletal spirits of 101 others would be taken away with this spirit - along with the spirits of 16 madames.

 

Spirit 6 (via Marisol):  Marisol put her head on the table and sobbed quietly until her spirit guide arrived. Instead of her usual clapping and dancing, she had a somber message.  In a conversation with Nelson, she said his family was stubborn, and she cautioned our group not to neglect our spiritual responsibilities.  She left with a warm message of encouragement, thanking our group for the work we did.  Carmen advised Nelson not to travel to Puerto Rico without spiritual permission.

 

Spirit 7 (via Nelson):  The discussion returned to Luis, and Nelson sensed a female spirit around him with an attitude of, "I love you, but I want to kill you."  This spirit wanted to possess Luis (Carmen saw the same thing).  The spirit was pulling and cutting strands of his hair at night.  She glanced at Carmen and informed her that she was no competition.  Dancing in her seat, the spirit described how beautiful and alluring she was, as she softly drummed her fingers on the table.  She was enjoying Marisol's counseling, whispering and giggling as she shared her story.  When she was informed that she no longer had a body and she was speaking from the body of a man, her tone changed.  Eva asked the spirit what was Luis' name, and she replied "Ernesto".  As she began to understand her situation and that Luis was not who she assumed, she asked for forgiveness and agreed to go.

 

Sonia asked the group to pray for Mia's brother (Ray).  In addition to his family duties and his job, his additional responsibilities with making decisions for Mia were taking a toll on him.  Nelson closed with a prayer.

Florida - October 18, 2015

In attendance: Astrid, Jackie, Jeff, Gloria, Nelson, Rafael, and Santiago 

Upon Rafael's arrival and during the reading of the opening prayer, Nelson sensed evil spirits who wanted to cause death. Rafael said he experienced a mini-stroke during the past week, and this spirit was intent on "finishing the job." Astrid sensed an older female spirit with Rafael who was telling him he was young and handsome, and Jackie saw the same short female spirit from last week with him again. 

Spirit 1 (via Nelson): There was a large group of negative spirits around Rafael. They were not happy that he attended the session last week, and they were very upset that he returned. Nelson sensed something between Rafael and his father during his adolescence, and Rafael explained that he had to learn how to manage the anger he had with his father. Nelson asked, "Why did he throw you out of the house?" and Rafael responded, "He wanted me to be someone I wasn't." Rafael's dad wanted things his way. There was a lot of resentment between Rafael and the rest of his family, and Nelson knew that most of it came from past lives, as history was repeating itself when the family members would not change. Jackie heard a spirit say, "He should have never been born into this family again." Nelson's spirit guide was speaking to him from his usual spot behind Nelson, and he explained that this group of spirits were unable to sit at our table with so much hate. If they sat, it would harm Nelson. Nelson was shown that Rafael's father was losing his mind because he did not want to remember what he did. He was a miserable human being. Caballito arrived to explain more and to soothe some of the anger: 

Caballito (waving his arms in a circular motion): There is nothing to be worried about or afraid. These friends of mine - and I will call them that, as they are sons and daughters of God and need our hand to see the light. The work is difficult and necessary. We need to remove the sickness. This is not just for him (Rafael) to learn, this is for everyone, even Nelson. Rafael will be okay. He is on the right road, but it is filled with obstacles that he will understand one day. (to Rafael) Instead of asking, "Why me?" ask, "Why not me." There are 16 here that will speak only when they have more love and harmony. I will step to the side unless I am needed again. 

Nelson described the group of spirits as dark and scary. Gloria saw Rafael with some mediumship ability. The spirits talk to him and he listens, but Gloria advised him to read more and pray to understand the good spirits better. Rafael said he saw two spiritual knights of the Templar around himself. (Note: The Templars defined themselves as soldiers of Christ and the temple of Solomon. Their motto was, "Death in battle is glorious." The red cross they wore represented martyrdom.) 

Nelson said that these spirits encouraged Rafael to start using the power he had previously for vengeance and anger, "to make people pay for what they have done." Nelson advised him to move those feelings to the side when they occurred, and the conversation continued: 

Gloria: Take care of yourself. There were two spiritual nurses around you as you came in. 

Nelson: For a week or two, keep away and avoid contact from everyone in your family. 

Astrid: There is a voice of one family member that bothers you the most (Rafael agreed). 

Nelson: Keep yourself clean from that bad energy. When you see the spiritual Templars, tell them that was from another life. It will be a good week for him if Rafael can do what was recommended. 

Spirit 2 (via Nelson): Nelson began studying a new spirit. It was a woman who resembled Jackie, and she identified herself as Jeff's grandmother. "That daughter of mine (Jeff's mother) is as difficult as ever," Nelson heard her say. "I tried, and I still try, but I cannot even go where she is now." The spirit shared stories of raising Jeff, his love of sweets, and how Jeff's mother disliked it when Jeff called his grandmother mama. She sat through Nelson to share more: 

Spirit (to Jeff): You remind me so much of me. I knew you were not my son, but you were. Anytime they allow me, I come close to you. One of my best memories was when I visited you in Chicago. I want you to be as happy and content as we were together. I want to remind everyone that all we take with us are the good moments. I am not an elevated spirit. One of my sons (Jeff's uncle) is not well. All I can do is pray for him, as I see him from far away, not close. It's okay for you (Jeff) to call me "mama". You would have been my fifth child, but the only way for us to be together was for you to come as my grandchild. I am so glad and thankful to all of you. I have always liked him (Nelson), he was so nice to me when I met him. Tell him I thank him for taking care of you in ways that I could not. When you need me, I will come around. When it's time, I will be there to get you. We will be together again in a better place, laughing like we used to do... 

Spirits 3 & 4 (via Nelson): Nelson asked Gloria if she had a nickname for her father (it was "tata"). Her father had returned to our table to see his two grown children (Gloria and Santiago), but he had not arrived alone. He spoke briefly in Spanish, and then he changed to English, "Tell the guy who writes (Jeff) that I did arrive on my ship. I learned from last time that I could bring some friends here. They are waiting outside, for permission to come inside. I hope you can help them. They are lost and here, they will understand." The group of spirits entered, and one of them moved forward to replace the father and speak through Nelson: 

Spirit: They say we can come and you will teach us? We are confused. We are alive, but not alive. 

Jackie: You're not in the material world. 

Astrid: You do not have a body, but you are alive forever. 

Spirit: We remember being on a trip, coming from Spain. On a ship... 

Jackie: The ship sank... 

Spirit: Yes. We got close, but a storm came. We were going to a big island, but we ended up on a smaller island where they spoke French. Some people on the boat spoke French, mostly we spoke Spanish. Some made it, some did not. The man who brought us here (Gloria and Santiago's father) is a collector of souls. Some of us are distantly related (to Gloria and Santiago, who had a relative in France). They said we will go to a school. We depended on each other, and that's the way they should be - all they have is what we had - each other. We are no longer drowning. Once we got to that door, they took that away from us. They tell you to give you a number that has meaning - we are 66. They are bringing a new ship now, and we are going on it as passengers, one by one. I will be the last. (looked at Jackie) In another time and place, one of our group would have liked her. He said, "That's a nice lady." Thank you for hearing my story, and keep that door open. 

Nelson saw their father caressing Gloria and Santiago, in the same way that Jeff's grandmother caressed him. Nelson also saw a female spirit around Jackie. She asked Jackie questions, but they went unanswered. At Yvonne's center, Jackie would respond to this spirit (and let her sit), so she wondered why she was being ignored now. Jackie understood that this was the healing spirit named "Lula." Jackie thought of her, but she was uncertain if it really was Lula, so she did not pass the spirit as she did in the past. 

Spirit 5 (via Nelson): Lula spoke from a position behind Nelson. She said it took her a while to realize what some people would do or say in her name, and she was surprised that people would say something that was not what she wanted them to say. She had been to Astrid's house (and Astrid and Gloria agreed, as they sensed her). She asked Jackie not to turn her down, as it made her feel that her work was not appreciated. She said she told Jackie to do something and she still has not done it. Jackie said it related to her health, and Lula said that health issues were her specialty. As if to prove her point, Lula recommended that Gloria drink more water, as she was not drinking enough. With more water, her back pain would go away. 

The spirit moved into Nelson, and using his hands, Lula magnetically charged a cup of water and asked Gloria to drink it. After it was finished, Lula wanted to know why Gloria and Jackie were not working as they should. She told them: "No excuses, work the way you were doing it before. It takes a while for the work I do to find a place, and I need both of you. Let him (Nelson) do his work, with the difficult ones, I need both of you. You (Gloria) will get well soon, and work at the table again. He (Nelson) would not let me sit when he saw the things I work with (plants, herbs, etc.). I tried to help Frank last time, but Jackie ignored me. We found another way, and he is fine. Thank you for allowing me to work again." 

Lula advised Rafael to drink liquid Aloe Vera to settle his stomach - in the same portion as the water that Gloria drank. Jackie envisioned the spirit moving around the room, performing a spiritual x-rays. There was a message for Astrid in regards to her youngest daughter. She should also drink more water, and she had an issue that had not been told to Astrid, because her daughter does not want to worry her too much. 

Spirit 6 (via Nelson): Lula said that we had many members of our group who had an affinity to Indians (Frank, Gloria, Nelson and Rafael). She welcomed that connection, as the Indians used the same natural healing techniques as Lula. Nelson was shown a large group of Indians, all of them from different tribes. In a seamless spirit transition, one of the spiritual Indians replaced the spirit of Lula. He looked directly at Nelson and said, "We are so alike. We knew how to cultivate the land and when the storms were coming. We still protect some of that land, as we will never give it up." Nelson began to visualize a small tribe among the Indians connected to the land in Puerto Rico that his father inherited. They were often with Nelson's father, but one of them said, "We still don't like that white woman (Nelson's mother), so we shoot arrows at her to irritate her." The conversation continued: 

Spirit (speaking with Nelson tapping his feet in rhythm, as if dancing to a drummer): We love our land and we care for it. We miss that old man (Nelson's father) as it is empty there now. The other white man on that land (Nelson's brother) is not well. 

Jeff: He has a lot of stress. 

Spirit (dancing intensified): We are waking everyone up. Today is our celebration. We will be free today. We are going higher, to a better place. We are all going up (raised his hands and took a deep breath). We did our last dance. We can go to a better land, to feel better, to do better things. I wanted to say goodbye to my friend (Nelson) who was always kind to me. He would say, 'It's your land, let me enjoy it with you.' Tell him that other one (the brother) is not well, but we cannot protect him any more - we have to move on. We will be reborn someplace else, but not on that land anymore. There are 29 in my circle, and me. We always protected that land, as some things there are not good. That one (the brother) needs to find new protection, he is not well. Tell him (Nelson) goodbye for me, I will miss him. 

Nelson wanted to return to Astrid's daughter, as something was not well. He advised Astrid and Santiago to find out what it was, as he felt it had the potential to explode. Nelson saw that the daughter was not communicating it, and it was something that needed to be talked about. Something was not right, and when things are left unexpressed, it can make us sick. 

Jackie closed with a prayer. 

Florida - October 14, 2015

In attendance: Astrid, Frank, Jackie, Jeff, Nelson and Santiago

 

Spirit 1 (via Nelson):  After the opening prayer, Jackie read a selection from Kardec's Book of Spirits on The Mission of the Spiritist.  Nelson's guide spoke from his position behind Nelson to ask the table that if we understood what was read, then why don't we do it? 

Caballito: What will it take for someone to truly believe?

Jackie: Something drastic...

Caballito: Why wait for that when it can be avoided?

Astrid: Human weakness and arrogance of the spirit.

Jackie: We always need proof before we take responsibility and change.

 

Spirit 2 (via Nelson):  Nelson said that we needed to listen to what the spirit world asked from us, as he began to sense anxiety, pain and chaos coming from the spirit side.  There were spirits laughing and having a good time.  "We were successful in our partnership," Nelson heard one of them say, "and I am going to get my prey."  It seemed as if the spirit was referring to John, the husband of Gloria's daughter.  "It's her, not him, who belongs to me" the spirit said.  Nelson envisioned this spirit standing at the foot of John's bed, as the conversation continued with the spirit moving into Nelson to sit:

Spirit (looking down at John):  I thought you were a man?  Get up now and prove it.  Always ready to fight with me, well what kind of man are you now?  Now she is mine.  Where are those who defended her?

Jackie: We're still here.

Spirit: I am getting so close...

Jeff: Why do you want that victory?

Spirit: She's mine and she belongs to me.  Nothing happens over there without me knowing it.  (laughing) you should have seen the other one who went over there (Gregory, the grandson of Gloria).  We burned his hands!  We cannot stop until she is with us.

Jackie: Only God controls that...

Astrid: You are wrong and you cannot go back.

Spirit: Oh I am going back.  I only came here to show you who owns that place.  The smell of death is already there, it's a burnt smell (laughed).

Jackie: The smell of death is with you - it's your body.

Spirit (listening to the guides): I cannot go back, he tells me.  He didn't lie when he told me if I came here (to our table), I would be better.  All of you think that all I am is revenge (raised his arms).  I know I am a spirit, so don't tell me that, I am not a fool.  He (John) stole what belonged to me.  He killed me to have her!  But she told him to kill me so that she could be with him.  I want to get rid of that in my mind.  I've tried, but I only think of that one thing.  I am not ignorant.  I know the first part of forgiveness is to leave her alone.  There are seven of us, with me, it's eight.  I'm taking that poison away, he (the spirit guide) wants you to know.  He says I cannot even say goodbye to her.  I have done many things.  Many things.  I am taking all that away.  I am going to become who I am and not what she is.  Tell that boy who saw me that I am sorry I gave him such a hard time.  Forgive me.  (pause)  I am going to a new planet, with a new atmosphere...

Astrid: Where you will feel lighter.

 

The spirit departed suddenly, with Nelson gasping for air.  The table discussed his visit.  Nelson's guide stepped forward with some specific messages for the group:

 

For Jackie (referring to the windows being opened at Mary's house):

Now you see how I do the work?  We sent someone to the house to open those windows for her.  All of you need to know that when work is done, there are many spirits involved, helping with the work.

 

For Frank:

Go on your vacation and enjoy it.  It might be your last trip.  Take all of your medication with you.  It's important that you do not think about your ex-girlfriend at all.  Things are there that will remind you of her and it will make you sad.

 

For Jeff:

When you talk to your mother, ask her how her health is, and how she is doing.  Ask twice.  She will tell you something that will shock you.  Just say wow.  I will be with you when that call happens.  We need to reconcile that relationship.  You might be at peace, but she is disappointed with you.  It's okay.  You would be surprised to see her now.  Remember that after all, she is just human.  And she is still your mother.  She helped make you who you are - she put those values there.  And you know better...

 

For Jackie:

There is some cleaning we need to do before you go on vacation (to visit her sister).  Things may appear okay, but they are not.  You cannot go to some places when you are there.  She is not telling you everything, there are things hidden.  But it's okay to go.

 

For Santiago:

Let your sister (Gloria, absent form our table) tell you what she wants.  If she doesn't want to tell you, it's okay.  You can ask whatever you want as long as you show concern.  Ask, "Is there anything I can do to help you?"  Don't let her behavior change who you are. 

 

Spirit 3 (via Nelson):  Nelson's guide was ushering in the spirit of an elderly female.  It was the mother of Santiago and Gloria.  "Sometimes even this spirit cannot go over there," Nelson said, "as she doesn't allow it."  Santiago said that Gloria often felt her mother around her, and the conversation continued: 

 

Spirit (sitting through Nelson): That spirit who shows up is pretending to be me.  It is not me.  They say that spirits do not get sad, but we do when something is not what we expect, or what we want to see from someone we love.  I am not allowed to get close.  (to Santiago)  Don't forget that she is still your sister.  Do the best you can, my son.  Now is the time she needs you the most.  She's responsible for her own actions, even I can't stop her.  My words don't get in, she is listening to the words of others.  Those are not my words, these are my words.  We removed some spirits today, but there are so many more, we could not remove them all.  Sometimes we are not allowed to get too close.  Jackie knows that about her mom.  This young man (Nelson) did not recognize me.  He didn't want me to sit, but I couldn't waste an opportunity to thank all of you.  (to Santiago in regards to Gloria)  My son, keep doing it, don't stop.  You get hurt when she doesn't listen, but don't stop.  If you do, you will regret those moments later in life.  Don't stop.  For all of you, don't stop loving your mothers.  Think of them.  Jackie, your mother was here with us.  She wants you to take that trip when you are ready and everything there is ready.  (to the group) Thank you for what you have done here.  These few words mean a lot to me.  (for Gloria) We are trying to restore her energy to make that flower be a flower again.  (to Santiago) I have not come often, as there was no need.  But now there is a need.  I requested permission and it was granted...

 

Nelson closed with a prayer.